Right now I am supposed to be resting. My mom took Ryen and Maddie to swimming lessons, Sonny is at work, Ally is sleeping. The house is so quiet. Sitting here, I can't help thinking about everything that has happened to me and our little family over the past year. We've been through a lot, but couldn't have gotten through any of it without my mom.
She had just moved into her new house and barely got it settled into when we asked her to leave it all behind and come to stay with us for a while. She has been our chef, our housekeeper, our nanny, and our moral support for months now. What a tremendous burden to ask someone to carry! It has been a truly humbling thing to see the way my mom has so selflessly sustained our family in my absence, and often Sonny's.
My mom was able to stay with me at the hospital during the labor and delivery. I know parts of that were agony for her, but I couldn't have made it through that experience without her. It has been one thing after another and she has been by my side through each and every trial. Since coming home from the hospital, I have gotten severely worse headaches which finally resulted in an ambulance ride and a spinal blood patch at the emergency room last night. As I was laying in one of the little rooms in the ER, I couldn't help thinking about my newborn at home and my other two sweet daughters. Because of my mom, they not only didn't even realize an ambulance had ever arrived at our house, but they had a wonderful evening watching "The Wizard of Oz" and playing with their Grammy. She was probably up most of the night worrying about me, but still got up with the girls first thing this morning, made them breakfast, and took them, giggling and squealing, to their swimming lessons. In times like these I become painfully aware of how inadequate the human language is. How can simple words like "I love you" or "thank you" possibly express the amount of love and gratitude I have for my mom? I don't think they really can. I guess all I can say to her is that one day, when she is very old, she will need someone to be her chef and maid and nanny. She'll need someone to drop everything and come take care of her. She'll need moral support and strength. When she does, I'll be there. (...But I'm hiring someone to change her diapers.)
That's beautiful, Meg.
ReplyDeleteThe thing of it is, ALL mothers are miracles. That includes you, me, and all of us with kids. It even includes the ladies without kids who hope to have children someday.
And I think your mom might actually prefer it if you would hire a stranger to do the diaper stuff. :)
She isn't even my Mom and I had tears reading that! You're so good with words. I can only hope when my kids are older, to be the kind of Mother that Pam is.
ReplyDeletePoor Megan with the headaches big enough to head back to the hospital. I have no idea what a spinal patch is, but it sounds icky and absolutely NO fun. Hang in there...I'll be thinking of you.
I agree with Beth about the diaper thing. I would *NOT* want my kids to have to change my big bootie later in life!
That entry just gave me the biggest knot in my throat, I just might cry. I understand how words don't seem like enough but what you just wrote absolutely melted my heart and the words weren't even meant for me. So I can imagine how much your mom will treasure that little entry.
ReplyDeleteMoms are the an absolute gift from God.
What an angel! Honey, I feel so bad that you had to go to the hospital AGAIN!!! man alive. You poor thing. I am so happy you are home and being taken care of. I just love you so much. Your mom is so sweet and she loves you so much. :)
ReplyDeleteI heard that Caity is good with diapers...
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Mom's are the BEST! And you do have an amazing one...I am so glad I get to be a part of this wonderful family! I am so sorry you had to go through so much icky stuff, Meg....we love you and know that you are a the BEST Mommy as well! We seriously can not wait until the day that you guys arrive!!!!! I hope it gets here quick. We love you and your sweet little family sooo stinking much....oh and if you want I will change the diapers....haha only because I have experience....yuck
ReplyDeleteMom will have her girls any time she needs us. She is the best and the entry was so sweet Meg. Mom knows you appreciate her. She has unconditional love for you and all she needs to know is that you are okay. One day you will be there for your girls like mom is there for you.
ReplyDeleteI really love your Mom, too.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing mom to go through what you have to bring Ally into the world. Good on you. Good on Sonny. We've been praying for you guys.